T-minus 20 days till my first exam.

HAPPY MAY! I would like to start this post of with something like ‘the sun is shining and life is stress free’ but unfortunately, this is not the case. The sun is well, non-existent and I still find myself wearing jumpers it’s that cold.  For me personally, well actually any student, the worst time of the year has finally come around and I’m dreading it. My exams start in 20 days and my last one isn’t until the 29th of June, K I L L M E N O W.  My school fantastically decided to make us do some mock exams last week, which has led my revision to go awol and me completely freaking out. Although my results has somewhat put me at ease and reassured me that whatever i’m doing to revise is actually working. I also found out last week that I got an A in my English Literature coursework so yay, go me!!

My revision however for my exams coming at the end of May/June is not looking promising, I’m hoping that somehow all this crap content goes into my head and stays there for literally 2 hours while I take the exam and then I can finally breathe again. My first A2 exam is sociology, a subject in which is not looking hopeful for me right now. It kinda sucks how these stupid A-level reforms means none of my AS grades count, even though I only did sit one but it would’ve seriously benefited my sociology grade right now, thanks Michael Gove you dick.

I only have 3 weeks left of school, 15 days to be exact and it’s terrifying. No idea where the last 7 years of my life has gone and nor do I remember half the things I’ve learnt. I am rather excited to be leaving, the concept of going somewhere new and studying one thing that I enjoy in detail is scary but also FUN. It’s weird that I won’t see my friends on a day-to-day basis anymore. I’m staying in London for Uni but some of them are moving out and going miles away. It’ll be weird how everyone will just disperse from school and do their own thing after being trapped in a system for so long, it’s so bizarre to me. I 100% think I’m finding myself more now that I know I’m leaving school, as cliché has that sounds. I’m putting myself out there more, going for job interviews, actually working, signing up for various things to do in the summer, and just generally putting more care into everything I do as I know that it’ll have an impact on my life. I can’t wait till exams are finally over so I can clear all the school related junk from my room and finally have some space, and also clear my camera roll that’s full of picture of slide shows, text books and various school related images. I can’t wait to have a cleanse and start fresh, I  AM EXCITED. Lets see if I make it past my A-levels yet, thinking about results day makes me feel SICK.